Exam days

Just sat for Electronic Devices and Adv. Calculus finals last two days. 

Seriously Devices is really quite disastrous, especially the pi-model question. 
I don't know how to do it lah. 
So I asked lecturer and said this question is so confusing and hoping he would give me some directions. 

Ended up he said " Yes, pi-model! It's just that simple! I already simplified it. You might be able to memorize the whole book, but you won't able to do it without understanding it. Haha. "

*Heartbreak* 


So gosh, I only memorize T-model answer in text book. 
I don't even know it can be drawn in pi-model. :( 
Honestly I only know what I am doing for 3 questions out of 5 questions I did. 

Lalala! It's over! 

I have 5 days to study Digital & French after Calculus, and now left only 4 days since I wasted so many hours watching 2 episodes of Running Man and a movie. 
And I am supposed to study by now, but I am blogging here instead. 

Lalala! Perhaps I should go to library tomorrow. Alone. 
I am so not productive today. Ahh. 
._____. 

Lalala! Let's have some motivation. SEVEN days to home sweet home! *wink* 

3 combo.

These few days, my hostel authorities are being very berry annoying and mean. 

First, they locked my bicycle, because I simply parked it on basement. 
Then, an once-in-a-semester fire drill which is quite meaningless for me. 
And another first time experience. Hostel spot check. *This really.... ISH!*
All these happened in just three days, in combo. 

I "stuffed" my laptop, water heater, printer and a fan into my cupboard. 
Locked it quickly and came out with heart beat of 120. Holy crap. 
How can't they let us live peacefully? 

However had a yumcha session and talk and talk and talk until 1.30 pm. Almost break my record. ;P


Study week now! 

No more quiz / test / assignment/ mini-project/ hands-on etc etc. 
I am still slacking around and do things normally I don't have the time to do, for example, blogging that I am doing now? Hehe. 
I am that sort of person who need to be stressed to perform optimally. 
I am work better under stress, but yet I hate stress. Dilemma. 

Study week has arrived but I am not yet prepared for it.
All of sudden, I feel a little empty. 
However it is relaxing to live such care-free lifestyle, even though just a few days of the study week. 

I will grow up, some other day.

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Mid sem break coming!

One more week to home! Cannot believe that time passes so fast. 

I bet those who know me very well would ask : 

" What? Choky, the super-domesticated emo boy? He said time passes quickly in university? I thought he always said time is ultra slow in university? "

Yeah, I admit I still get home sick sometimes, just not that often like last time in the first semester. I don't really know why, maybe it's because of a speech by one of my relatives, requested by my mum I guess. 

During CNY, we talked a lot about finance and his view on life. Erm, to be more exact, it's him who talked a lot. He once was a small insurance agent and he is now a successful, wealthy person. Honestly I could not digest all of his words and still not interested to sell insurance. However somehow I learnt something from his personality. 

It's just something I could not describe with words. Strange huh? 

Another reason is because I have friends now. Sorry it should be 

"I have MORE friends now!"

Thanks to them who always make me busy and that's why I could not think too much and get home sick! 

And I never know group study can be that effective! HEHE 

T Bin who is handsome, humble, and yet very smart! 

L Jin who is kind, wise and always ask me to chillax! 

K Hooi who is funny, sociable and "yellow" once in a while? 

JR who is ...  talkative and loud? Joking lah! :P

And many more! 

Going to sleep! NIGHT~!

框架

突然想起天天好天的片段，刚算了算一年爸可以回家的日子到底有多少。三个星期回去三天，平均一个星期一天。一年有五十二个星期，所以有五十二天。凑个整数，就加特别节日特假如新年等等，另加八天，合计六十天吧！

原来还少过如今就读大学的我呀！那么我与他见面的日子更不用说了。够了，不要算了。思念原来与见面的日子，是成反比的。

其实现在的心情是心疼我的老爸还是想念我的老爸，我也分不清楚了。

我觉得，一个家需要内容还有框架。好多家有漂亮的框架但里面没有东西，而我的家有个人觉得很不错的内容但暂时没有框架。不用担心，我懂得乐观。我的家正在进行大装修。我深信，那告别一段日子的框架会回来的，还会是比以前更坚固的。

“Normal is overrated.”

I forgot since when I heard a very wise words from a monk. 

He said : 

 " 感动往往都是一时的，所以要学习如何去把那一瞬间的感动变成永远。" 

Just FYI, I was crying like shiit at that time and that's why I remember it until now. In my own interpretation, I would say : 

" When you are moved by a movie, your feeling at that particular moment macam an exponentially decay graph." 

That's why I am blogging now, as I am trying to preserve that feeling. 

Just went for a movie session with friends in PUMA and watched a movie "Soul Surfer". 

It is about a girl who loves surfing so so much but lost her arm in a shark attack.

The girl is incredibly brave. When she got bitten by the shark, she didn't get panic or scream but just stay calm and do nothing. You may say she was just stunned, but I choose to interpret in another way. Who can possibly so calm when something bad strikes all of a sudden? When she woke up from coma, she asked when she can goes back to sea and surf again. If such person do really exist, she is much braver than a lion. 

“I don’t need easy.  I just need possible." 

This is what her friends in church said to her. "I don’t know why bad things happen to us sometimes but I have to believe something good is going to come out of this. I don’t know what that is. I really wish I did."

When she first gave up after some obstacles, her dad didn't want to give up on her and said : "If she gives up, she will never get back into the water and she will never be the same." 

However her mother said : "You can’t just fix everything just by shear will..".  

It made me thinks about roles of family members. There is always someone who hoped you to endure difficulties and hold on while another one who hoped you to give up and stop the pain. 

She and her family are always positive towards life, and grateful on what they have currently, like her father said : "You didn’t lose everything Bethany, not even close. That shark didn’t kill you, you’re here, you’re alive, you have your family." Her family is truly amazing. 

“When you get in the Impact Zone, get back up because you never know what’s over the next wave.” 

She lost an arm but she gets more influence than you ever imagined. 

Ming Wei ahh!

It's the first Sunday morning in Semester Two of me in USM. The first week is unusually free for me. Hope this is not the calm before the storm. Hey Chok Dong don't you dare to forget that you already promised to yourself that you going to be positive! 

Just had some chat with my sister. And some how we talked about a boy, named Ming Wei. I am not sure whether that's the correct spelling, as long it has the same pronunciation. He was sent to my house to be well taken care of, by my mum of course. 

He was so shy that he refused to call me "gor gor" when my mum asked him to and did not respond to any of my words in the beginning. He didn't even look into my eyes when talking to me. Then I kept kacau him like how I kacau my sister in a very annoying way at a constant rate. 

Acting like an elephant. 

After some effort and time spent on him, I managed to get him chasing around. My mum, my sister, him and me played catch things. Sometimes I might hide it when he does not notice. Soon he found it somewhere with my hints and got very happy.

Just FYI, I am the one who made his special necklace and fire torch! ;)

I was told that no one could communicate and interact with him, even his family members. His elder brothers do not play with him. It just needs some attention and a lot of patience to slowly understand him, and to guide him. 

Playing his favorite, angry bird!

The doctor said he's special because he could not actually communicate with others like other kids normally do. He lives in his own world and thinks in his own way. Perhaps he's just never try to understand what others think. Doctors defined him as a kid with autism. 

I said he's special because he always shows his true self. I found him very cute. My sister said he's just like me, cute but annoying! *Smile*

Poser like me! 

In the beginning, I was worried that my mum might get too tired to take care of a special kid. But in the end, I realized my mum actually found something which can distract her from thinking nonsense all the time. I know my mum might get too tired sometimes, but as long she is happy, I shall not grab away my mum's temporary happiness. At least he is cheering up my family and I appreciated that very much. Thanks ah, Ming Wei!