Exam..... still going on...
my brain suddenly filled with knowledge...
and I know after the exam, my brain will start to reformat everything.
already a few weeks I didn't go to shopping
go for any outdoor activities...
and right now worse....just go to school at morning...
come back home and study...FOR THE EXAM.
Oh my god, this 3 weeks i feel my life just for study....
study for EXAM. To get a good result for my PARENTS not for me.
why I am so lazy? i think maybe it's bcoz of my gene....
Gene is the main cause just like what Bu Yeow said.
i am so... shy... sometimes....
so usually don talk to others who i don noe.
not refuse to talk to them....but shy....or in other words... scare.
I realised this during ACA...
when Sir Colin talked to me, WALAUA!!!
SCARE!!!! plus Sir don really like shy person.
maybe i think i am a "shameful thing" in my heart.
and i really scare of those girls
we don noe each other but the girl talk to me...
first i will get shocked and dun noe how to react....
stand at there....plus my english is quite poor.
haiz....my ENGLISH is REALLY POOR!!!
i have a crush with a girl...
but then...i just hide my feeling deep in my heart
bcoz....again shy aka scare
scare rejected by her if she knows what i feel
no confidence...i just repeat the same question...
keep on asking the same question...
HOW?HOW?HOW?
at last i get a conclusion
IMPOSSIBLE la!!
and i like silient.... no people...
alone... nothing in my mind....
complete silient...listening at music sometimes.
i like to be ALONE...
for me it's the only time i have my dignity....
my confidence...no one looking at me....
point at my bad...say about me....
i dun wan others to talk bad about me...
but i understand and just let it be.
i always do wrong things and i dun noe.
the worse is i call others not to the mistakes i did before
which i am still doing it....
perhaps what i need is mirror...
looking how sinful i am.
that why people talk bad about me...
i dun noe but i didn't blame them...
bcoz i am the one who did the mistakes
so i am the one who need to change
but i didn't!!!I hate myself!!!
ARGHH!!!
WTF!!!
this make my life sucks like shi*!!!
what's my job in this world?
i did nothing but bring all bad things come to this world.
what have i done?
*blank*
Exam makes my life meaningless...
i dun like people who think they're the most important in the world
these people are useless!!!they bring nothing except ego.
they are worse than a kid who perhaps more humble and wiser than they are
i would rather choose the kid to be in my life if i can choose...
they might be the HERO not only in his heart and also in the world.
but they are ZERO in my soul.
They are noobs who don noe how to be humble, or rudely, they are stupid idiots.
why they want to live their life in such a bad way?
they just think what they did is right...refused to listen to others...
deny his own fault, and don wan to apologize on the mistake they had done.
TOO BAD!!!
i will not respect them...if forced i will PRETEND to respect them.
can u feel the anger in my words?
i hope they will apologize on their behaviour.
many people advise, tell, scold or even scream on them.
they just keep on sleeping and ignore what others say.
they will never wake up!!
HOLY ****!!!
i want to kick them out and i will if i can.
p/s: This post is not subjected on anyone.Thank you.
