Essay =S

Yesterday night I got a call from MK .

"Hey, did you check your inbox for NTU outcome a?"

"Huh? So fast meh?"

"Yeala. Come out already. Go check. Y got accepted. I got rejected, WC also. "

"Apa? Rejected? I'm outside now. I go check later."

"Okay. Later tell me result ya."

Almost all the pro students in my class got rejected. Therefore, I got a feeling that I won't get a place. When I opened the message, my eye quickly skimmed through the text looking for the word either "accepted" or "rejected". At last, I got neither "accepted" nor "rejected" but a word "regrettably". Aiya, I failed.

I am not sure whether they feel regret on this, but I am sure that I am not! I was disappointed and sad for no reason for awhile. But I am alright now. Hehe. I applied, they rejected, then I appeal. I have to write 50 words for them. *Sakit kepala*

Everytime I open an application form for a scholarship, I will scroll down to last part to see whether they require an essay. Seriously, I hate ESSAY-WRITING! *Blogging is the only exception.* I have to imagine I am an ideal student and think like a holy person. And one thing for sure is that never write things that are morally unacceptable.

For example,
"Why would you apply this scholarship?"

For some who are fearless they will write "Money". This answer is not wrong, just.... inappropriate? For a coward like me, sadly I have to crack my head for some time and slowly come out with some APPROPRIATE words. So sad when I type this.

Anyway I do not blame them for asking us to write the god-damn essays. They could not be our friends for couple of weeks to truly understand us and our personality. Essay is the only way and the easiest way for them to understand us before interview sessions.

What to do? Accept the fact and slowly come out with essay ba! =S

Happiness or Money? ;(

Went out for a swim with BC, Yang and also Bubu yesterday since our Beloved Agong gave us a holiday. I tried so hard to swim like they were that time, but failed. But next time I will! Haha. Then Yang reminded me that I didn't blog for quite a long time.

Okay, talk about how did I do few months ago. I got my STPM result and I am quite... satisfied with it, eventhough it is not a perfect 4 flat result. What makes me surprised is that I got A for Maths T! I had a hard time cracking my head to solve math questions and I was super-duper nervous at that time. It was a nightmare and it was on my birthday too. Never mind, at least it makes my birthday so unforgetable for the very first time. *It is the first time I received a birthday card and SMS. One birthday card and one SMS would be enough for me already. THANKS!* XD

Soon after getting my result, I would have to apply for local universities. Normally people choose their courses based on their interest. Too bad I have not found my interest yet so I choose the other way round. I cancelled out all the courses that I am not interested in and this way is much much way easier for me. What is left are ENGINEERING, APPLIED PHYSICS, PURE SCIENCE. I took a long time to decide what should I apply and at the mean time, my parents kept pushing me. It annoys me and we even argued on that. Luckily it is over now. *phew*

There is something different in application system this year. Last time we have 8 choices and just throw in whatever courses you want. This time, we have 4 choices for Research U and 8 choices for what I called "less-wanted universities". You might think "Holy crap! You should be grateful that you actually have 12 choices this year." This is bullshit. For me it limits me to put only 4 choices for RUs. I aim for RU courses. Before this, I actually wanted to try for acturial sciences and engineering. However I only have 4 choices and I was in a dilemma.

ACTURIAL SCIENCES OR ENGINEERING?

For me, what enginnering attracts me is the knowledge and what acturial sciences attracts me is money. Looks like everyone wants to get into Acturial Sciences and usually only 4-flat-ers able to get a seat secured. Sometimes I imagined how my life will be in future. If I were given a chance to choose between happiness or money, which one will I choose? Quite a realistic question. Even my relative asked me to consider for taking acturial science telling me that I will be wealthy in future.
I left the question unsolved until my father insisted to show me an article on a chinese newspaper. It was about a person who pursued Acturial Sciences and earned a lot. However he was unhappy so he resigned and went for.... Sorry I forgot what he did after that. What he said is that "Choose your interest instead of money, because when you have the interest in your work, eventually you will earn a living through your work. "At last I gave up on Acturial Sciences and now I sincerely hope that I will not regret on the decision that I have made.

HAPPINESS OR MONEY?

The answer might be obvious for some people who I know. How about yours? Hope you will find your happiness. =)